Day 12

Well, it's only a few more days and the 14 day journaling and letter writing "tutorial" will be over.
I am reading a book entitled Firefly Lane by Kristin Hannah it's about two teens in the seventies and eighties, and the friendship between 2 women. I find it interesting for many levels, one because of the eighties aspect and 2 because I have many friends who come to my parties, and speak to me on facebook or in person but not any long term life friends. I had a friend from college that was in my wedding that I had known for 13 plus years, we had a falling out and I choose not to include her in my life, sometimes I feel like that may not have been the right decision, and yes, I could pick up the phone and call her or better yet get out some nice stationary and write her a letter but I think about it... and decide no. I do envy some who have long life best friends that don't judge them or give them unsolicited advice. I found a part of the book with a letter in it that I wanted to share here. The reason why I am sharing it is not only because it is a letter but because I have a grandmother who has played a huge role in my life and means so much to me, I lived with her more than my own mother and I was touched by this letter...
"There were things she was supposed to do now, she knew that. She and Gran had talked about this, done this to prepare. Tully knew though, that no words could have really prepared her for this.
  She went over to Gran's nightstand, where a pretty rosewood box sat beneath the photo of Granpa and alongside the battalion of medications. She lifted the lid, feeling vaguely like a thief, but Gran expected this of her. When I go home , Gran always said,"I'll leave you something int he box grandpa bought me.
Inside, laying atop the cluster of inexpensive jewelry that Tully could rarely remember her Grandmother wearing, was a folded piece of pink paper with Tully's name written on it.
Slowly, she reached out, took the letter, and opened it.
My dearest Tully~
I am so sorry. I know how afraid you are of being alone, of being left behind, but God has his plan for all of us. I would have stayed with you longer if I could have. Your grandfather and I will always be watching out for you from Heaven. You will never be alone if you believe in that.
You were the greatest joy of my life. Love, Gran
Were.
Gran was gone."
So I encourage you to hide a note some where for your spouse, child , friend or parents today.